It was a quarter past midnight
Tried to sleep but just didn’t feel right
My mind was playing on rewind
Saw how my life was in a bind
Hard to take in everything I’ve done
Realizing I was far away from the Son
One life that felt so unworthy
‘Til the day I saw Your glory
Stuck under all of these boulders
Called for You to lift them off my shoulders
Now You’re coming, running to me
Arms open wide, you set me free (x2)
Fours years just pass by so quickly
Don’t feel like this good life is sticking
I’m falling and failing again
Hope this rollercoaster just comes to an end
Enemies of come, hurt and left
Broke my heart and soul… it was like theft
Lost my way once more, I’m in the dark
Looked at You, Your light has left the mark
Stuck under all of these boulders
Called for You to lift them off my shoulders
Now You’re coming, running to me
Arms open wide; You set me free (x4)
As I sing this song
I know who I am and where I belong
Singing praises to You, my Lord
This was never wrong
Thoughts... I knew who I had to look to for the way I was feeling, but it was just accepting it and knowing that God is the one that I need to look to in order for things in my life to get better. The pieces to fall into place. The more I sing this song... I love the chorus and it gets me. I'll describe this song just so you can fall allow along in my thought process and if you don't like it.. tell me and let me know. I love input! By the way, this song is still a working process, so yeh I need you to comment!
Verse 1: Well one night, my sophomore year in high school, I was lying in bed and just couldn't sleep. I knew I wasn't really a Christian and I wanted to do something about that. I started looking at my past and figuring out all my "what ifs," but it got to the point where I was like no more. I have made so many mistakes and done things I shouldn't have... I can't do this anymore. I can't live in what ifs and just need to live for the day.
Chorus: I felt the whole world on my shoulders and no one to talk to. To tell my problems and issues with... I had a few friends, but I couldn't tell them everything I thought. So when I would cry out to God at night or whenever for that matter, I just felt his presence in me and it was so comforting because I would stress from my shoulders just me released.
Verse 2: This second verse is about my life now. I was going good loving God and showing that to people, but I lost it somewhere along the lines. I just didn't want to have near. Part of it was my fear of others realizing how much I love Him and then not wanting to be my friend because I was losing so many people I thought were my friends. So I stopped it altogether, but one night came again like in verse 1 and I couldn't sleep. Tossing and turning and thought about my past again. Just really reflecting and figuring out where it all went wrong. I still don't really know, but I feel it has to do with the period in my life when I just stopped going to Youth Group (partly because I didn't like the set up and partly because the people who would encourage me weren't there). Anyways, yeh and lately I've been really just looking to God for answers, for questions, for tests, for being there, for everything. "He is [now] my All in All!"
